mental health
Alone and Depressed
A raw fragment about isolation, invisible pain, and struggling to survive yourself.
I just want to talk to someone,
Or scream how much of a pain i am in.
Even though I try to convince myself that this’ll end
It won’t.
It’s not Physical pain to be treated.
Everytime i see myself in mirror,
I see someone who’s struggling to survive.
I see someone who’s in pain,
I see someone who’s about to end it all.
I wish i had the resolve to go through it,
But i don’t.
I’m in an dilemma,
Should i stay alive and suffer so it might get better
or
Should I just end it all and let myself be free
It’s hard when you have to build from scratch
It’s hard when you have to put up the bread for family
It’s hard to live with delusional parents who thinks that we’re fine
The Truth is we’re not.
They fucked up,
They fucked it up all.
and they are too delusional to admit it.
I just want to leave and start over,
So at least I’ll be able to survive this mess.
I know this doesn’t make sense
But,
I hope you’d understand it.
Note to self - If you ever survive this, thank you for not giving up.